Feelings

I have a lot of feelings right now. I feel anger, hurt, sad, frustrated, worried, nervous, excited, and relieved. I usually say that I eat my feelings. I eat whenever I am stressed or happy or nervous... I eat. I am really fighting the urges to eat these days. I feel like I have so much going on that I have to figure out a better way to handle it then eating. I really need to go to bed right now, but I want to do a super quick run through of my feelings and hopefully I can address them in a later post.
-Anger and hurt. I am not ok with what happened to me last spring. I said I was, I thought I was, but I was wrong. I have never had anyone so blatently betray my trust and faith in people as I experienced last spring. I will have to think long and hard before I get involved with anyone anytime soon. Addiction is a horrible horrible hurtful thing. And now I know this. I am currently working on forgiving. I am also working out what to do with our relationship (friendship only mind you!) now. We shall see.
- Sad. I am sad because I just found out that the company that I sky dived with over the summer, suffered a terrible tragedy recently. 10 jumpers were killed in a plane wreck. If you know my myspace you can see my pictures of my sky diving adventure. My jumping buddy, Kelly, is thankfully ok. But his brother was killed along with many others. I can't imagine going through something like that.
-Frustrated. I am mostly frustrated with my family in Spain. I am supposed to be moving to live with them in less then three months. However, my plans aren't solid and I'm not communicating with them as often or as well as I want.
-Worried. I am worried about moving to Spain.
-Nervous. I am nervous about moving to Spain. Obviously, I have a lot of feelings about Spain right now.
-Excited. I am excited for the things I have planned in my life. Spain, JVC, teaching... all are going to be awesome!
-Relieved. I am not going to Tucson this weekend. And as much as I am bummed I am not going to be hanging out with my Tucson friends (or going to their halloween parties) I am relieved I get to stay home. I can go to church, go for a run (which I havent done in months!), work, and do nothing. Plus I can save the $80 I would have spent on gas. Sweet!

So in conclusion, I have a lot of feelings right now. I am working through the tough ones and savoring the good ones. Now I must sleep.