Mark 12:30

I had my bible study this evening. It has been a real challenge lately. Everything has, church, XA, bible study. I've been struggling to let go of it all and put it in God's capable hands.

Mark 12:30 says, "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength." This is a challenge! I have been trying so hard to plan for my future that I'm not sure I know how to turn it over to God and let him have my future. I've been thinking JVC, au pair, teaching, grad school... I've been thinking so many things trying to find the one that fits that I have been stressing myself out! What I should do and am going to work on doing is handing it over to God. His plans are SSOO much better then my own that if I just let Him do His thing I will be so much better off then with my own plans. But I like planning, I like knowing now, I like feeling independant, and I need to work on that. Because even though I am busting my butt to figure out what to do with my life, I still have no idea what to do. I'm not planning. I don't know what I'm doing. I'm going around and around in circles trying to find the scenario that fits the best. What I really need to do is stop. Stop wasting my time. Stop questioning God. And stop worrying. God knows what I need. He knows the desires of my heart. He is amazing and I need to trust in Him to put me on the right path.

Through the Holy Spirit I can achieve God's will. I have some serious praying to do. And some serious listening. God will let me know. I just have to listen and then act on his commands.

I have only 15 days of student teaching left! I'm very excited. It is going so well. Thanksgiving is going to be awesome too. I am going to Tucson and am going to cook Thai food with my family. It is going to be delicious and fun. I'm hoping to hang out with EVERYONE. I want us to have a shindig, but I don't know who will be in town or available so we will have to wait and see what happens with that.

This week is going to fly by. I teach all day tomorrow from 7-3p. Then I babysit from 3:30-6p. Then I babysit another family from 6:30-8:30p. Then I go home and go to sleep. Thursday I teach all day then babysit in the evening. Then Friday I teach all day and have XA in the evening. I don't really have any plans for this weekend. I know I have to go through my things in the garage and figure out what I can take down to Tucson to put in storage at my sister's and what I need to post on craigslist for sale. I have been putting that off for too long.

Well I need to rest up. I have a lot to do and not much time to do it in. Luckily God's time is not my own.